change of direction.

so ive realized noone give a fuck about my blog lolol

which im fine with, i guess ill still keep blogging and print 

it into my personal little book when time comes to go to college.

so i've come to thinking, im almost at that point where i've to get another job that isn't seasonal, actually save my money, decide rather im goin to cosmetology school or the police academy. yadduh yadduh. two complete directions i know, but im still lookin at the street signs in between both options.

so ive been going out a whole lot more im kinda waiting on my mom to pull on the leash soon lol. 

ive so many things i should probably get tending to as well but meh id rather type (:

i was also listening to some older music and i actually stopped for this one particular song with a verse that made me remind me of an ex and it felt like i had been virtually slapped. :')

"You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Now I count the hours 'til you wake
With your babies breath
Breathe symphonies
Come on sweet catastrophe"

good grief gottuh love that 2010 . im excited though for moving away, the idea of a different face everyday and new personality's around every corner seems so exciting.the people here are all over played. well the ones that Ive personally came across.

i think i'm going to start posting quotes, photos or currently listening songs at the beginning or end of my blogs. not sure though. well im off to read the Invisible Man now. ciao nobody <3

Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt I love.
-William Shakespeare

well fuck.

well fuck.

the lovely advertisements on the internet are killin me slowly. having me aware of the upcoming oh so gushy "valentines day". and i think back to going to sleep hoping my ex bf would just of replied. but of course not. reason being, yea ive an excuse, on my wall there's a photo of us where i got creative. i hate how people can just change and leave the other person on hold. then when they finally get the fuck over it, they ring em up for a lil crush them the fuck up chat. hooked again? yea. i feel like a lame ass for over contemplating, but i hate change and i don't like the idea of having to reacquaint myself with someone else. 

if that even makes any bloody sense.

music discovery

im into discovering the undiscoverd when it comes to music. im tierd of the over played.
its really difficult to find an artist who does what they do to share with other the joy of the music. but anyways.
I find myself really into the acoustic scene atm and my friend just sent me this video  that i really enjoyed, figured id share it for who ever stummbles across my blog eventually.(:
xx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kJjwUl1bWLs

Self Image

I noticed, how people now of days have gone to a great lengths to edit their person image. When i was out the other night with a few friends, and i noticed one of them constantly subconsciously looking at themselves in anything with a reflection. i don't think in his case its conceitedness but it wasn't a "oh i look gooooood" kind of glace it was more of "how do i look how do i look" kind of glance. Older lady's used to come into my work and ask, "what can i work out in that wont show these" (pointing toward the non existent stomach rolls). teenagers always tend to over edit a photo before uploading it onto their Twitter, Facebook, My Yearbook ect. I see these young high schoolers, caking on the makeup to look good yaduh yaduh, and its because they are not comfortable with their personal image which is really sad. 

Im not gunnuh lie, i feel the same, but i try to avoid taking that second glance at anything with reflections cause i would rather go the day without having to worry about what fits on my face or how my ass looks in my jeans or how my hair looks. i know thats its an entire worlds habit but it honestly bugs me.

 xx